Friend or foe I ask you, yet you choose not to respond.
We are friends I decide and choose to spend more time with you.
Though last time we met I felt you judged me in the end.
You looked at me and I could tell you were empty on the inside.
I resented that look for I recalled all the times we had spent and the fun that had ensued.
You sometimes bring out the best of me.
Your light and carefree ways lower my inhibitions Bringing fun times but sometimes causing much duress.
I recall many a time where I awoke the next day, feeling ill about what I had done the night before.
My bad actions a blur, sewn together with bits of remembrance of you. Mocking.
You’re with me now as I write this. Yet I still feel alone. Sometimes I hate you.
Tonight you have traveled far to be with me. But you only came at my call, not of your own accord, though such could never be expected.
I wish only we had more times together, and that those times fell toward the good as opposed to the other.
Tonight your presence makes me sleepy yet inspires me to write.
I wish sometimes that we had never met but I cant picture my life without you now.
I know tomorrow ill resent myself for falling prey to your allure, yet tonight I celebrate your very existence.
I know no better way to show my love for you than to overcome the want to leave you behind and embrace that you are part of my tomorrow.
I wish only that we had more time together. I wish only the people would not judge us for our actions.
We shall not be less than what we are when we embrace.
We shall rise together.
- Jon Hof